Confessions of a Chatty Girl: Things don't always go according to plan

Oh, who am I kidding things never go according plan!  For better or for the perceivable worse, God never does what you expect Him to do.  That has been made obvious in my life time and time again.

If you have been reading my blog for a while you know that my story has taken a lot of unexpected turns.  Just in the past two years of having this blog you have seen the ups and downs of my life not going according to my plans.  From getting turned down for the RUF internship to breakups to awesome jobs to now planning a wedding. 

Two weeks ago I got the awesome news that my fiance got a promotion at his job!  I am a very proud fiancee and no mistake!  The same day just two hours later my boss comes into my office and breaks the news that he has been fired from his position as in house architect for the big Texas firm we both worked for and as we were a package deal, he could no longer afford to keep me and I would be jobless by the end of the week.  I felt like I had just been sucker punched in the stomach.  This job was the craziest, best paying, most stressful, most interesting, most intense job I had ever had.  And in a matter of seconds it was gone.  I have rent to pay, I have things to do, most importantly I have a wedding to pay for! 

Enter my incredible future husband . . . I always knew that I was going to need someone who could be calm when I am freaking out, someone to remind me that God is still in control and He will take care of us.  I think that I am marrying one of the most calm men I could possibly find.  In the midst of my gasps and tears he soothed me and reminded me that for starters God knows everything that happened and He is not going to dessert me in this and secondly that I was not alone having to figure this all out.  "Between God and me, we will take care of you."  

I am so blessed.  Even though life doesn't go according to my plan, even though what seems perfect doesn't work out in the end, even though I get blind sided by new developments that God brings into my life.  God knows what is going on.  God isn't going to drop me off in the middle of no where with no direction.  He has gotten me this far.  All I have to do is go back and reread the post from the past 2 years to see that!  So while I have moments of freaking out and questioning what He was thinking I know from experience that He is using this.  No matter what it is He is using it.  

Please be praying for me though these ups and downs.  As I job hunt; as I plan this wedding; as I learn to adapt to God's plans and as I learn to let go of my own will.  I don't know what is in store for me in the future and if I am being honest that scares the living daylights out of me some days.  So be praying for me that I will trust in Him and not be anxious for anything and that I would cast my cares on the Father.  

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. - 1 Peter 5:6-7

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Phil. 4:4-7